a) I've been ridiculously fidgety and unsettled for the last few days also, argh. I suspect the heat is a large factor, and there was the recent attack of several cockroaches and a family of moths, and just other stuff. I haven't even tried to write anything in... idk, a week, because it's just too hot and I just can't focus long enough. *headdesk*

b) ( Pardon my self loathing. )

c) ( The Sauce Bottle squee. )

1) Wil Anderson's doing a signing in the city this Wednesday, and considering the rather large crush I had on him back in the day, possibly I'll end up going to that... idk. Maybe. I am rather broke though. *ponders*
2) Candide for the Sydney Festival in January includes Paul McDermott as Pangloss, and it's free, so uh. Yes, chances are I may mosey my way over to that and freak out a bit. Opera = singing. I are clevr. (How early would one have to get to the Domain in order to be able to see, like, anything? Jesus.)
3) In regards to Danneel/Jensen... eh. Haha even with this news, I'm still a bit 'there's no waaaaay he's into girls, what the hell?' *happily continues to blank out probable reality* Also, why do they do these things right before Cons? Gee, that's gonna be fun for them all.

( GNW squee )

Why is it that whenever I (or anyone else, judging by the internet searches) ask about good jobs for shy people/people with social anxiety, the immediate response is along the lines of 'suck it up and just get whatever job you can find'? Um, helpful? I used to have to walk up and down the back street by the video store and psyche myself up for five minutes before I could even go inside. It made me feel sick, just ironing the shirt. I do understand that this is weird, and a problem, but while I'm at university at least, surely I can just take the less-stressful road and look around for a job that won't start me back down the panic-attack road? At least I'm attempting to find a job?

Also, I mean, it's obviously not why I want to be a writer; I love writing, it's my life. But I think I've probably been writing for most of my life because it's the only way I can confidently communicate. I have verbal dyslexia, I swear. I cannot speak to save my life, even when I'm just with good friends. And I'm the most socially awkward person in the entire world, and I'm sure I just come off as plain rude most of the time, instead of painfully shy, so just... let me have a antisocial job, okay? Please? Where can I find one? My skills include typing and procrastination. Good fast typist. Unconventional method, but fast. Can I be a typist? Oh please?

( I did that thing today where I go into the city and watch a couple of my heroes wander around and hug and be adorable and funny and stuff. )

I am officially finished with my degree for the year. *dances exhaustedly* I even finished and handed in the essay before other people had gotten half way to the word limit. I mean, WHAT. Is this the Twilight Zone? I finished before 4am the day of an assignment? Aaaand I am rather beind, having started late, but I'm at 5000/50000 for NaNo, wooooo.

Also procrastinated happily with parts an old GNW debate, 'Always Look On The Bright Side', including some parts I hadn't seen before, yay. Exampllleees:
Corinne teases and licks Paul.
Paul is a sexy reindeer, and also Satan. (Stiiill not sure how this made it on telly XD Satan/Rudolph OTP?)
Paul paints Satan all over the set and acts generally insane. Most terrifying ten minutes of TV ever, y/n?
Paul/Mikey cheek kissing.

They kiss a lot. You know what I need? That special they did together ages ago. Also for them to like, release a CD or DVD of their radio show. I used to listen to it all the time with dad, but clearly didn't appreciate it as much when I was... eightish. And Sandy's voice used to drive me up the wall.

OH, you know what else I did today? Bent one of my longish fingernails (I bite them, they're all uneven, I blame Elijah Wood) in half, and blood spurted out. YEAH, OUCH.

( Live SPN Squee. All caps, all the time. )

Okay, so, I think I have such a hard time reading/rarely read LOTR fic for two reasons.

a) I generally flock towards things that are largely (if not entirely) Peregrin-oriented, and apparently for some reason not every fic in the world revolves around him.
b) I don't read het. I just can't, okay? I'm a freak, I know I am. All out straight romances RUIN things for me, minus like, Tom Hanks/Meg Ryan movies, Fry/Leela, and Joel/Maggie from NX And I have spent the last *ponders* eight/nine years thinking of hobbits (especially Pippin) as lacking in genitalia.

Which leaves a small amount of gen. Which I do enjoy greatly, but there doesn't appear to be a huge amount of it. But it occurs to me, (finally, after said eight/nine years) that it may be time to square with the fact that Pippin probably did have boy-parts, and may possibly have wanted to use them (when he came of age obvs). I think it may be time to peek into the apparently quite well-hidden world of LOTR slash. After my thesis is done.

And also I may have signed up for NaNo. *headdesk*

( GNW squeeeeee. )

And um, hey, also, ( Pertaining to J2, 'girlfriends', and a teeny tiny spoiler for 5x08: )

I didn't see every episode of Sideshow when it was originally on the air (dad almost got us tickets but that's a whole other frustrating story), and so only just found this segment on youtube. Gleeeee. Magic, men holding hands, blindfold jokes, and angry/amused/giggly Paul. He's having so much fun! The adorableness just won't quit.



I officially have a first chapter of my novella, and my outline. Due first thing tomorrow, wooo. Then another thing due Wednesday, and so on and so forth. Ugh. Can't wait to sleep in a few weeks. Also apply for jobs. Knowing my luck, I'll send out a resume the first day after uni, and get the job that afternoon. DNW. I like being pathetic and unemployed, damn it. Er, well. I like not freaking out about having to deal with assholes/people. Can I be a dog walker?

( GNW squee as always. )

I won a Dog (Footrot Flats) plushie on eBay! *gleeee* You may now all feel jealous.

It was actually a struggle to find people to come to Good News Week today. I mean, hi, free spare tickets to a tv show taping with a bunch of pretty funny people? No takers? In the end my mum tagged along hehe. I'm ever so proud that she didn't stand up and loudly protest at the rude jokes.

( Taping squee and assignment panic, as usual. )

Can someone explain to me the reasoning behind that Adam Lambert photo shoot where they have him posing with a naked woman? Would it not have made more sense to have him pose with a naked man? Or, like, maybe even both, I guess, but... Did he not just recently announce he was out and proud and awesome, which most people seemed quite overjoyed about, and also evidentially he has an adorable adorable boyfriend... Soooo, they do a photo shoot with him being all sexy with a woman? I get that it's just a photo shoot, and I think he talks about how he thinks women are sexy and whatnot in the related interview, but... idk, isn't it a bit random? Could we not have embraced the whole thing and had a sexy m/m photo shoot?

I am not at all self-serving in this request. Lol no, really. I'm just... bzuh? I admittedly know very very little about this however, so I shall be quiet now. I'm totally doing uni work. I'm so very behind all of a sudden.

Good News Week tomorrow :) I so do not have time to go, blech, and am starting to feel weird about going so much! Buuut I really want to see two of the announced guests for tomorrow, and I just know if I don't use the other ticket, there'll be singing and dancing or something, so. Only a few more shows for the year anyway, I shall hoard the experiences while I can, and remember them fondly while I'm busy with 8000 assignments next year.

And also, ( That Ross Noble/Paul McDermott kiss... )

Stupid... womb... *glares at stomach* Diet has officially started back today, on the day I most need chocolate, damn it! But I have been good. I even went for a walk. Possibly a stupid idea in hindsight, but I'm sure the legs appreciated it.

It's starting to get really really hot again. Why do I live in this country.

Also, probably should have been trying to get large amounts of assignment done, but instead read beloved old Jared/Jensen fic and was fangirly, and maybe watched A Bug's Life again. I need more Jared/Jensen public gay in my life. I have to admit I'm kinda glad they aren't coming back to Australia next year, because I will already be very broke. On the other hand, they possibly would have been thrust upon GNW as cross-promotion, and I would have squealed. A lot. (And possibly begged and pleaded someone to let me go hug them? To no avail I'm sure, but still.) Nngh, J2 on opposing teams and snarking and such. Why, God, why have you not made this happen? Think of the gay that would come from such a show. I hear even Mikey was ogling Jensen when he was on last time hehe. (Understandable.)

Er yes. ( Good News Week squee, as per usual. )

Not-at-all-productive things I did today:
- watched youtube clips of border collies 'talking'
- watched youtube clips of pet foxes
- played something incredibly boring yet addictive on the Wii
- chased the cat around the house
- searched for houses with big backyards with online real estate sites
- pondered the possibilities of DomLijah. Just because.

Things I should have been doing:
- cleaning my room
- coming up with one page/first page of my novella. This is due tomorrow. I think.
- not naming and daydreaming about hypothetical dogs. (Pippin is still the winning name.)

Also, my nearly-sixteen-year-old brother is apparently incapable of turning the chicken and waiting for it to cook without my supervision. If I didn't want Pokemon Snap on the Wii so badly, he'd not be getting a birthday present, damn it.

( A few happy things about GNW, of course. )

Drove down to Kiama and then Berry with the mother and the UK!mother today. Actually very lovely day hehe. Poked around in itty bitty shops, had chips on a deserted beach, and got befriended by an adorable horse in Berry. I named him Strider. I love that area of the world; beach and country so close together. (Mother and UK!mother are looking to maybe find/buy/rent a house down there. I could have a dog. omg.)

I am not a lamb eater, like, really, but I have to say the roast downstairs smells pretty awesome. I may also have overdosed on chocolate and junk food lately, so. Points start again tomorrow. As well as my frantic workshop piece for Tuesday, because thus far I have... one sentence :)

( GNW taping squee. )

Eww, university tomorrow. It's my least favourite day of the week lol; the one with all the ridiculous group activities and forced socialization. I just want to be a hermit, damn it ):

But look look look, fun GNW videos.

(Also. I am officially planning to indulge in Doctor Who and Torchwood during the holidays, and will probably be a hermit over the long horrible summer period. Please say there's lots of snow in these shows?)

( I should be doing readings right now. )

Slept on the couch yet again. Becoming quite sleep deprived. Especially as the household kept me up til 2am this morning, and later admitted to thinking the drunkest member should maybe drive home. And now they're mad at me for not thinking their antics are hilarious. Do I really have to be the adult one around people in their 40s? I really am Saffy.

Had dad's house to myself on Saturday night, so curled up in front of their huge flatscreen TV and watched The Emperor's New Groove and the DAAS DVD. Tim and Paul are ridiculous, seriously. So smiley and touchy-feely and in love. Also GNW on the big screen is so prettyyy. I love the Saturday replays :) When dad and his partner got home, she saw the DAAS DVD and was all, omg! I remember them! They were on that Big Gig thing! Hehe yeees.

Aaaand uni tomorrow Wednesday! Yay for cancellations! But sigh. My break went past so quickly! Though I'm not even feeling very rushed; most of my assignments are out of the way, and 2/3 of the ones left are fun writey ones :)

... I need to stop chewing on my sleeve.

Righteo, ( tonight's GNW squee. )

We have a friend from the UK staying with us, so I am about to embark upon a month of sharing my room with my mother, and sleeping on a mattress that is clearly the spawn of Satan. \o/

And of course just missed most of GNW because, I adore them, obviously, but mum and said UK friend are the loudest people in the entire universe. I did enjoy the promo before hand which featured everyone on stage near the camera, with Paul shouldering Mikey and announcing that it's what goes on beneath the desks that is important. Oh really? And also, 'Don't make me come in there and getcha! *clawy hands* Raaawwr...' ... *squees quietly*

( I did see... )

Hee, my heart. From a TV Week interview with Paul:

Who's your celebrity crush?
Mikey Robins. Don't tell him, though! Don't let the world know! Don't let the werewolves share our love - that would be wrong. Also, that chick on the show would probably get upset.

Idk, is he going on about Twilight? But eheheh. Paulie, your love for Mikey has not been kept a secret, particularly not recently.

Anyway, I've sunk to a new low and have been writing Mikey and Paul schmoop all week (and also Ninja Turtles! 12 pages, bow to my productivity), so now that is done with, it is time to start on major assignments.

Oh oh, and saw Lisa Mitchell last night; she is adorable.

( SPN 5x03 )

( The Jerry Lewis gig squee and possibly a highly unpopular opinion. )

ETA: Now with added pictures of Paul and Mikey from the night! And also some random gay from getty.

Cannot stop listening to the Witches of Eastwick OST. And singing. Which I really need to stop, now that the neighbors have moved in, as we share a common wall. Huzzah. Hopefully they are nice, quiet people.

Jerry Lewis (and Paul and Mikey and JMo and Peter Berner and lots) tomorrow, yay! Terribly excited. Even if I hate our public transport system and may end up screaming at a bus timetable after the concert tomorrow night. Anyway.

Didn't get tickets for the upcoming GNW tapings though ): I may have withdrawels! Hee actually I'm mainly disappointed because a friend was finally going to tag along this week, so of course we don't get the tickets this time.

I am off to write J2!Rescue Rangers schmoop, because I can. *glee* Maybe also some more TMNT drabbles, because aww, I have missed playing with those boys. Turtles. Whatever.

( LJ names meme )

meme that's goin' around. except condensed into one day ;)


day one. a song
day two. a picture
day three. a book/ebook/fanfic
day four. a site
day five. a youtube clip
day six. a quote
day seven. whatever tickles your fancy


( because we all need more glee in our lives )

So hey, Kanye? Classy! Haha, what the Hell was that?

I'll be honest and say that I think that particular film clip of hers is ridiculous. I thought it was cute up until the ending. Seriously, great message there. (I have similar complaints for 10 Inch Hero. Really. What?) But that was like watching Kanye stomp up and down on a tiny happy friendly puppy! Andrew G has been taken down from the top of my list of 'Yay, We Have No Class' people.

But yay for Green Day! :D

( J2 squee and GNW squee )

Truly excellent weekend :) It was most non-heinous.

Friday night: ( Supernatural 5x01, nothing spoilery, and Avenue Q )

Saturday: ( More Paul interactions. I love Saturdays. )