Why is it that whenever I (or anyone else, judging by the internet searches) ask about good jobs for shy people/people with social anxiety, the immediate response is along the lines of 'suck it up and just get whatever job you can find'? Um, helpful? I used to have to walk up and down the back street by the video store and psyche myself up for five minutes before I could even go inside. It made me feel sick, just ironing the shirt. I do understand that this is weird, and a problem, but while I'm at university at least, surely I can just take the less-stressful road and look around for a job that won't start me back down the panic-attack road? At least I'm attempting to find a job?

Also, I mean, it's obviously not why I want to be a writer; I love writing, it's my life. But I think I've probably been writing for most of my life because it's the only way I can confidently communicate. I have verbal dyslexia, I swear. I cannot speak to save my life, even when I'm just with good friends. And I'm the most socially awkward person in the entire world, and I'm sure I just come off as plain rude most of the time, instead of painfully shy, so just... let me have a antisocial job, okay? Please? Where can I find one? My skills include typing and procrastination. Good fast typist. Unconventional method, but fast. Can I be a typist? Oh please?

( I did that thing today where I go into the city and watch a couple of my heroes wander around and hug and be adorable and funny and stuff. )